Lessons on Eruption pt. 1

𝐋𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐞𝐫𝐮𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 (𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐏𝐓. 𝟏👇🏾)⁣
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This time last year I was meditating on the ‘next step’⁣⁣
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My business was doing well. I was in a high-powered community with next level femme biz owners. I had paid collaborations lined up. I was serving my dream clients. I had a foolproof plan for a multiple 6 figure year in 2021. ⁣⁣
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𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘥… 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥. 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘧𝘶𝘭. ⁣⁣
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𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥, 𝐈 𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐭… 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐫𝐲. 𝐋𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧. ⁣⁣
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At first, I tried to ‘overly-spiritualize’ it. I told myself ‘it’s just inner child stuff. it’ll pass.’ ⁣⁣
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But the more I did to be the kind, sweet, ‘evolved’ good goddess leader the angrier I became⁣⁣
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𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘵 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘦. 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘐 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘣𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘴𝘢𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘳𝘢𝘨𝘦⁣⁣
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𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘭𝘰𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘶𝘴 𝘸𝘰𝘮𝘹𝘯 & 𝘧𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 — 𝘸𝘦 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘉𝘐𝘎𝘕𝘌𝘚𝘚 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴⁣⁣
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When tell ourselves things are fine because they seem so. ⁣⁣
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When you’re a leader/healer, it’s magnetized. ⁣⁣
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𝗪𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐞 ‘𝐭𝐨𝐱𝐢𝐜, 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐫𝐲 𝐛𝐢𝐭𝐜𝐡’ 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐨 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫 ⁣⁣
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In the new age spiritual community there’s all this talk to ‘transmute’ the ‘negative’ emotions to stay ‘high vibe’⁣⁣
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𝘠𝘦𝘵, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘪𝘴 𝘦𝘯𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴, 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 ⁣⁣
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𝐁𝐮𝐬𝐡 𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐬 𝐮𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫⁣⁣
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𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐰𝐞 𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐬 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐞 𝐫𝐮𝐧 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐝𝐨𝐦 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨, 𝐭𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐢, 𝐨𝐫 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐞 ⁣⁣
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At some point I even played into this too⁣⁣
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Until a message in a dream told me to go to Guatemala…