🤬SCREAMING BECAUSE I FUCKING CAN🤬⁣ ⁣

😬Does this trigger you? Keep reading😬⁣

🌿 I have been feeling a lot of anger the past few months. Violent, seeing red, crying, screaming, punching shit anger⁣⁣

🌿Because I have spent most of my life bending over backwards to please everyone:
• Showing up in a way I ‘thought I should’
• Chasing the praise, the awards. ⁣
• Doing everything for others. ⁣
• Forcing myself to ‘heal’ toxic family situations. ⁣
• Overcompensating. ⁣
• Playing small…⁣⁣

🌿 Why? Childhood conditioning: people pleasing stems from an inner child wound (more to come in the next post)⁣⁣

🌿 My ego found pride in being well liked, the peacemaker, the ‘healer’ but it’s all bullshit. ⁣⁣

🌿So I was sitting deep in my anger, learning from her wisdom. ⁣⁣

🌿 Once the anger faded I started feeling grief. At one point I even thought I was suicidal⁣⁣

🌿 I realized I don’t want to die, I wanted to kill the people pleaser within⁣⁣

🌿 So I’ve had a long, deeply emotional, ornate ass funeral. Recognizing all the ways she has helped me get where I am. Honoring it. And letting that shit go because it doesn’t serve me. It’s been raw. Messy. Scary. Beautiful. Painful.⁣⁣

🌿And now I’m here just… Being.⁣⁣

🌿RAGE IS SACRED. GRIEF IS POWERFUL.⁣⁣
🤬How do you honor your anger?

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